sticky friends

i hate, despise and loath the use of so-called cute spellings which are supposedly used to sound CUTE when you say it out loud. big-eyed cats/dogs and that begging face is supposedly the picture that comes in mind. the one that gets you to go "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..

." for the longest time. sorry to burst your bubble but it doesn't. which is why i deleted my Friendster account because they were filled with wall posts from omgican'tbelievei'madmitting this - my friends - who used such VULGARITY (yes i consider them as disgustingly vulgar). and i wouldn't want to receive the wrong impression so i just don't reply them. yes now you know why you think i'm sombong online. because imagining you people talking like that in real life would scare the living shit out of me.

now the point of this post is not to moan and complain about such messages anymore because Facebook is cool and maybe the company just got a little bit cooler/hotter. take your pick ;)

i'm still thinking about that deleted note that was gone in an instant. before i realized what was happening, i TRIED saving it but god was annoyed by me that night and so that didn't work out. the contents are forgotten but its okay i got new rambles to ramble about. just a day in a girl's life.

"perempuan mana yang tak suka bukak mulut? (which girl does not like opening her mouth?)" - thats by me and it works more ways than one if you have that equally dirty mind as i do ;)

okay sticking to the point now...

in the short span of 3 years i've had friends come and go especially friends who i have nothing in common with anymore. i mean nobody is at fault because one thing i don't like is a dramatic fallout. this is more of straying away but conversations can be carried out if we have or want to. i mentioned this before, that it takes a lot to REALLY hate someone for me. sometimes i might complain how much i hate a particular person, but hey those are those say-before-thinking moments. i think too much pressure and emotions are wasted on feeling hateful. i can be in a room with ex-best friends and be comfortable because the term exes doesn't have to be so harsh and treated like a dirty word. it simply means "yeah, we used to be close but not anymore..." it takes more than one person to tango so people should not feel bad when the friendship dies off. this simply means making that effort to keep it going just faded and moving on is a better option.

college thought me that ultimately i'll find someone i can relate to with the basis of thinking, experience, lifestyle etc. i found a few which i will always remember even though its not really the same now is it? just a phase we have to pass through to get onto that other stage. i'll meet other new people or rekindle relationships with old ones. the constant change i am currently going through sometimes gets into my head leaving me feeling a bit disconnected from the peers i have grown accustomed to. not that i stopped liking them but i feel like its almost like a chore trying to keep up with their ways when i have moved to another level or completely changed the game. so maybe i am not one of those "stick friends' material. the transition is a blur because i have a few who would walk the line with me and are still stuck with me through thick and thin, the people i am willing to make an effort to stay afloat with.

currently i am content with my company. they may change from time to time but isn't that how it works? <3