the answer

i wish i was tiger lily in that song. because listening to it made me go under my covers and let that pang of patheticness roll in slowly and painfully. i hate admitting to this because it goes against my own principles
i finally slept and woke up more tired. i would say i needed more but why push it. i won't wake up feeling liberated anyway.
i'm moving around in this like i'm in a permanent state of stupor. drifting in and out. i no longer feel anything. almost guilt-free.
repeating it makes me feel less but making me more empty. i feel less human.
i'm not pissed off as how i should be. nor am i feeling that "weight off your shoulders" feeling. just tired.tired.tired.
was telling someone that maybe i'm getting this rush of tiredness because i never got a chance being tired then. i shoved that feeling and they were replaced with other emotions which required me to cope with them. so now that i am done, i'm starting to feel exhausted. i'm tired in my head&body.