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i had this whole speech written in my head for almost 6 hours. but the fact that my head felt too heavy and vomitting out words was not really my top priority, i sat on the thought for a bit in between naps and space staring. however i am once again defeated by the limited capabilities to stick to something due to my trancient nature and so the topic is already "so 6 hours ago!". sigh.

its weird how i remember things better when i am high as zeus acting like a music slut. or when things are said because of said alcohol influence which are meant to be forgotten the next day. i remember. i always do. even though the music acts as a background and the strongest shit is served, i know what i heard and i'm certain with what i saw. i have a theory on that. the flashing lights in the room acts as snapshots of particular moments. so i basically remember certain scenes if not all. the memory acts like those photo flipbooks. so yes i do remember. clearly in fact. maybe i'll bring it up or the other party would. either ways its no biggie :)

last night proved that i still have a lot more coming. and that thought kept me assured throughout the entire night and even short moments of today. either ways i was thisclose to keeping up with the tradition. maybe its a sign that i should be ending this streak of random pashes. single-serving make out buddies. oh the fun and inside jokes that goes together with it. 22/08/2008 was a good example of such randomness. *nudge nudge*

i'm in deperate need of a hot shower. the shoulders are getting cold.