Something to write about

everything seem to be under a halt. the fast pace is finally slowing down just when i am ready to take them in and run along its course. i am obviously bored out of my witless mind with nothing comparative to write about. damn i don't even know the main idea and purpose of me writing this in the first place. maybe if i just get the words flowing something is bound to flicker in this mind of mine. there's simply nothing much to say because am i finally feeling content? its true that i find writing those meaningful ramblings of a note on Facebook as therapeutic and i swear it was my savior from making terrible mistakes and impulses. this sense of serenity is making me jittery. wow is this what peace feels like? things in head seems a little bit clearer now as i can easily make decisions without a doubt. there's no more mix feelings whatsoever anymore as i am now finally certain that if i let things run its course i will someday eventually find something i would be attracted to. everything that has been happening this past couple of weeks just happen to happen under false pretenses and i am not complaining about them one bit anymore. things happen and i just have to deal with it.

the last thing on my mind should be the reputation agenda. never had i actually thought about the concequences of my actions so much as i am now. i cannot stop what others are going to see and say because i really do believe that people are indeed entitled to their own opinions. the bitching and expectations these individuals hold does not bother me despite those moments of curiosity which want to lead me to the culprit. i am not going to hold your tongue and so i am allowing it to wag free.

wednesday was a good day as everything was laid across the table and the conclusions we've made about friends and foes. how the drama brought us closer together. a very unexpected bunch i don't think anyone could have predicted. but it was like a breath of wholesome fresh are that day. from emotional heartfelt conversations to seizure-worthy laughters which literally scared off neighboring customers. how we need more company like this around. i can safely say this brought a whole new level of friendship in my part.

i am already growing tired of the games you are playing. so maybe i am just going to jog in one spot in hopes you'll give me something to run to. there's no more expectations where you are standing because a long time ago, i've stopped believing in fairy tales and the prince charmings ends up looking like pretty gay boys. i'm sticking around because i enjoy the given company and the attention. that is as honest as i can get. but hey, which girl doesn't?

okay points proven and i seriously need to get out of my pyjamas.