what i want is what i need

1. i want to write again. as in proper writing without that many of the use of swear words. writing as in things which possibly could get me published in the New York Times. something meaningful about life and the things which evolves around it as conceded it may sound. i believe what makes a person interesting is the fact that the person is interacting with everything around them - from people, objects, weather and even animals; which eventually helps the person evolve into the person they are today.

2. i am in dire need of a new look. it has been 3 years since i last sniffed my own hair let alone combed it. which is why the lack of interest in hair products.

3. starting over is one thing but starting over when everything around you remains the same is a difficult if not an impossible task. since moving out of the country is not up to debate, i need to find a way to accomplish this almost-impossible feat without turning away the people that matters most and without costing too much money.

4. i need to find or discover a new skill. something new and probably weird which is highly interesting in order for me to maintain that said interest for quite some time. and probably market it so that i could actually make some dough out of said interest/talent.