the mess i've made

iselin steiro by mario sorrenti for Interview March 2010

i would have taken a picture of how my cupboard looked like with literally an avalanche of clothes piled up so high that one could really wonder the struggle i have to go through every time i needed to pick out a top. because how i've already come to terms with the changes in my life that i've decided to do a major spring clean. i threw out a huge bag of clothes which reminded me of how i used to be; clingy clubbing tops, floral dresses, worded t-shirts, DIY projects gone wrong & clothes 2 sizes too small. i guess i no longer have the problem of holding onto things which are irrelevant to me. this applies to other real-life scenarios. why hold on to things which were once phases in your life you have no intention of going back to?

empire state of mind

listening to that song makes me feel like home that it sends shivers down my spine. funny enough, i've teared listening to the lyrics carefully. it just makes me wanna make it someday, you know. like you know you are better than what you are now & that someday when the stars are right, you'll get a chance to make it all happen. i want great things to happen to me instead of watching it on Oprah or read about it on websites like Gives Me Hope. i want people to talk about me doing great things and probably make them want to make it as well. i just wish i will be given a chance to just get out of this safety zone & breathe the air of another city.

tell us a story; i know you're not boring

new york, someday i will conquer you & then leave because it got boring.

hide me pretty

mobile Blob VB3.

i want one in my garden please?

oinkers!

rihanna for GQ


all i want for christmas is to have a banging body like hers. and maybe a hot guy to make full use of said banging body :) please&thankyou!

my Veronica Mars marathon officially ended with me now stuck with nothing good in comparison to Skins and Vmars to watch. those two are by far the most interesting shows ever made in relation to other snoozefest tv series which have caused me heartburns and possibly the rise and fall of my blood pressure. should i go back to Dexter? maybe...
so a few things have happened this past couple of days. my work is finally getting published and i got new job offers to do. plus the fact that a few good people are finally back into my life. so yay me!

rough around the edges nudity

Lindsay Lohan for Muse Magazine

a little raunchy and steamy picture mix for a thursday morning viewing pleasure. the raunchiness of current pic mixes does have it's own hidden agenda. an agenda not worth getting too much into it just in case one of these days somebody decides to use them against me. but lets just say it makes one doubt the existence of one's own current principles to begin with.
this week has been a mix of annoyance, stress and undeserving relaxation treats. plenty to be done and yet i have more than enough time to take naps in between everything i've been doing. oh and also squeezing in Starbucks time with boys & music. i should complain less and live more. but that living part is a bit hard to do when even this fast paced super life most 21-something peers of mine are living is getting a little bit too mundane. which leaves me asking the question whether i am growing old too fast. perhaps that is the case but i've only started doing most of this come late 2008. yup a year of nonsense and principle breaking activities and i'm aready tired and burnt out. amazing, every parent should use me as an example of a trophy child. unlike most of my peers; and i'm using peers meaning people i actually know personally without making any assumptions whatsoever; are actually introduced to this lifestyle even when i was still roaming the school halls in 1.5 inches of heels making sure the other students are quiet. maybe i squeezed in too many situations into a short period making it a crash course or condensed version if you want. with so many things have been done it makes me wonder what is left for me to do? the excitement of experimentation with illegal and sorta-legal substances is to the very minimal leaving me off to face the seriousness of life right now. how boring. anyone up to donating 100k to my personal fund just so i can travel and perhaps dive off a plane for fun? see, now i would have to turn to the extreme to satisfy this thirst. whats next?

hello, i love you

super crazy delirium <3

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whoa is this too much to fathom in my already mangled mess inside my thinking box. i've been getting the same visions everyday for the past couple of days & i WILL make them happen no matter what. it has been driving me to skim layers after layers of myself which i have yet to discover. oh my! you have no idea how much i NEEEEEED this to work out. i love what i'm doing & i want to show it to the world.
btw i bought a few books already & i'm pumped to start ;)

i wanna be somebody

the upcoming playboy cover featuring Marge Simpson. yeah she's hot with her hair down & i know somebody who would so DO her -_-

back to reality as i stepped into class the first time after one of the longest break i've taken in 2 years. so the feeling of reluctant & lazy clouds the mind when i now have to occupy a 4-walled room with white tables & black chairs. i only have got one class per week giving me ample time to sort out the insanity inside my head. i swear i got a migraine concocting ideas for the upcoming final project. things are looking pretty much awesome as we got the OK GO from Derek. fingers knotted ;)
if you remember, i really want things to work out for me now & the near future. damn i never wanted something to work out this badly! i guess its a good sign. okay i'm going to power nap as MimO calls it before i start losing my mind.

in & out

today was my first day at class after a 2 -week hiatus. and i dunno but the work pile is making me nervous. i just sent in the email regarding the job offer so i'm waiting for that and i'm considering starting on my Fashion Communication project right now so i can not worry about it later but i feel like crap because i just woke up from the type of sleep which gets me feeling anxious and crap when i wake up. taking lungful of air is not helping either. its like the lack of oxygen is making me even more nervous. i'm so scared to take this whole "taking over a new leaf" to the extreme. i hope i can do it. and do it well and be awesome. haha (that was a nervous attempt on being funny)