can i be as lucky?

i want a proper glimpse into another person's soul. how every kiss is not merely a kiss but a hunger to fill that empty void. i want to need; i want to be deathly addicted to someone and so will he to me- "a mutual addiction". i want to finally make love; not just empty sex with the illusion of lust and perhaps love for the act itself. i want to have someone so wholly without the guilty after-taste. can i finally have that video montage moment? a Hollywood romance enacted through me? please...