can i be as lucky?

i want a proper glimpse into another person's soul. how every kiss is not merely a kiss but a hunger to fill that empty void. i want to need; i want to be deathly addicted to someone and so will he to me- "a mutual addiction". i want to finally make love; not just empty sex with the illusion of lust and perhaps love for the act itself. i want to have someone so wholly without the guilty after-taste. can i finally have that video montage moment? a Hollywood romance enacted through me? please...

mystery solved

lost my bra. made a mess out of my already messy room. so i had to settle for another bra which wasn't as snug. then later in the night just as i was about to get comfortable in bed to sleep, i found it lodged between my mattress and my wall. how did it get there? then i thought of the last time i wore it and hmmm never mind... too late because it brought me back to a couple of weeks ago.

damn it! it's pathetic to have memories like this.

body heat on snow

how can my heart beat NOT go any faster?

sticking to the story

bill georgoussis

i thought of going into a full-throttle bitch fit about the complexities of life's challenges but i better not. it probably does nothing good to my karma points nor will it make things any different. the feeling of placing these feelings into another form of emotion is confusing and complicated. so many things to complain about and yet i cannot think of anything to be thankful of at the top of my head. maybe a momentary pause to recap the greatness that has happened but even that takes an effort. i'm telling myself that this is part of growing up and that i must have extra faith in myself to get a grip and snap out of it already. infatuation or not, i already labeled this as being unhealthy. so why am i being a hypocrite for over-thinking the situation? (there i go firing off).
so what started off as friendly turned sexual turned emotional. then before any of us could get a grip of whats going on, he leaves, i'm like this, the end.

plus leaving the youtube videos of the songs i'm listening to non-stop does not help either.

if we ever

there are plenty of songs made for this.

too many for one to imagine but Tiny Vipers' Dreamer would sum up how i spent the last couple of weeks of 2009 with you. and maybe after all the denial and the hide & seek we had to play among the others i am glad we took that moment away from our routined life. i may not know the intricate details of who you are but i would never consider you a stranger. how we came to be and how we evolved would forever be within us.

i am sorry if there were times i could not fathom your existence in my life by pushing you away a little too hard.

i hoped you could have stayed a little longer or at least gotten to know each other a little more. but this is what it is and i am happy that you get to start over on a brand new year in a brand new city, you lucky bastard!

i am gonna miss you J! :(

there's a possiblity

i don't want yet i do.
& you are kinda in the way.


oh shit. it's happening again.

An autistic romance. and romance being the key word here. i'm shoving aside the conventional way of reviewing romance movies here for a minute because there is nothing conventional about this movie. Sure Josh Hartnett stars here opposite Radha Mitchell; 2 very good-looking actors (sorry, the superficial part of me was shining too brightly....) I admit, the reason i watched this movie was because of oh-dirty-sexy-voiced Josh Hartnett, but i think it's one of those movies which you might need to have a specific mind-set before actually deciding to watch. Don't expect soft-core sex scenes, love-dovey behavior and jiwang-karat lines which could make you roll your eyes till it disconnects from your sockets. i had no expectations. nothing and my eyes were constantly glued to the dusty screen.
2 individuals with autistic differences suffering with Asperger's Syndrome, Donald (Hartnett) who has a superhuman abilty with numbers ("I'm late, which is ironic, because I started out 9 hours and 23 minutes early") and Isabelle (Mitchell) who takes things literally and hates the sound of metal banging each other. Prior to meeting Isabelle, Donald works as a taxi driver and leads an autism group. When Isabelle joins the group she turned Donald's life around fusing together her choas and his flaws and creating a new person in Donald. The chaos they live within society makes more sense when they are together; from gawking people to their hopes and dreams (Isabelle wants to paint a room with morbidity and scary eyes).
Never will you see a character so cleverly portrayed by Josh Hartnett. plus you get to see him in a vinyl whale mascott suit. which still equals to sexy in my books. i'll rate the movie a 3.5/5 in storyline but 4.5/5 for different. it's not everyday you get a movie touching topics such as these...
"i don't know what to say" - and with that he caught her heart.

An autistic romance. and romance being the key word here. i'm shoving aside the conventional way of reviewing romance movies here for a minute because there is nothing conventional about this movie. Sure Josh Hartnett stars here opposite Radha Mitchell; 2 very good-looking actors (sorry, the superficial part of me was shining too brightly....) I admit, the reason i watched this movie was because of oh-dirty-sexy-voiced Josh Hartnett, but i think it's one of those movies which you might need to have a specific mind-set before actually deciding to watch. Don't expect soft-core sex scenes, love-dovey behavior and jiwang-karat lines which could make you roll your eyes till it disconnects from your sockets. i had no expectations. nothing and my eyes were constantly glued to the dusty screen.
2 individuals with autistic differences suffering with Asperger's Syndrome, Donald (Hartnett) who has a superhuman abilty with numbers ("I'm late, which is ironic, because I started out 9 hours and 23 minutes early") and Isabelle (Mitchell) who takes things literally and hates the sound of metal banging each other. Prior to meeting Isabelle, Donald works as a taxi driver and leads an autism group. When Isabelle joins the group she turned Donald's life around fusing together her choas and his flaws and creating a new person in Donald. The chaos they live within society makes more sense when they are together; from gawking people to their hopes and dreams (Isabelle wants to paint a room with morbidity and scary eyes).
Never will you see a character so cleverly portrayed by Josh Hartnett. plus you get to see him in a vinyl whale mascott suit. which still equals to sexy in my books. i'll rate the movie a 3.5/5 in storyline but 4.5/5 for different. it's not everyday you get a movie touching topics such as these...
"i don't know what to say" - and with that he caught her heart.