saya aneh

marilyn manson for Olaf Blecker.

i've always found him (Manson) fascinating. i remembered doing a paper on him for one of my psychology paper. i'll always stick to the channel when i catch him playing & i even read up on his life. i think i would LOVE hanging out with him just for fucks.
heartshaped glasses was such a turn-on song. especially the scene with Manson & Evan Rachel Wood having sex in a blood soaked room. ooooh! i'm demented.

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anyway results came out & i totally rocked the last semester out. same with the other terms i've been the past 2 years or so. mommy is proud so good for me! woop-double-woop!

i need to go book shopping for some calm reading materials.
lately i've been having violent urges to damage people's faces in.

pile up in aisle 69

so i guess work is piling up because i'm letting it. and it's scary to know i am not one bit afraid of datelines. maybe a little anxious but knowing me, it'll all align properly. it is in the stars; really ;) as noted a million times; i won't let anything or anyone fuck my chances up even if it means sacrificing a few worthless souls holding me back in a mass bonfire ritual. yes, i am that crazy & driven.
course work is starting to impact my spiraling life & so are side projects which i am more than excited to do.
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on a much brighter note:
i seriously want this... because it'll beat the crap out of nooka watches ANY-FUCKING-TIME!






ORA watches. fuck its so awesome i am tearing from the creativeness & the fact that i really want one!!

oh and this gold piece by T1MEPEACE. not a watch but still... :)

christmas is near. what will you be getting me?

hello, i love you

super crazy delirium <3

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whoa is this too much to fathom in my already mangled mess inside my thinking box. i've been getting the same visions everyday for the past couple of days & i WILL make them happen no matter what. it has been driving me to skim layers after layers of myself which i have yet to discover. oh my! you have no idea how much i NEEEEEED this to work out. i love what i'm doing & i want to show it to the world.
btw i bought a few books already & i'm pumped to start ;)

i wanna be somebody

the upcoming playboy cover featuring Marge Simpson. yeah she's hot with her hair down & i know somebody who would so DO her -_-

back to reality as i stepped into class the first time after one of the longest break i've taken in 2 years. so the feeling of reluctant & lazy clouds the mind when i now have to occupy a 4-walled room with white tables & black chairs. i only have got one class per week giving me ample time to sort out the insanity inside my head. i swear i got a migraine concocting ideas for the upcoming final project. things are looking pretty much awesome as we got the OK GO from Derek. fingers knotted ;)
if you remember, i really want things to work out for me now & the near future. damn i never wanted something to work out this badly! i guess its a good sign. okay i'm going to power nap as MimO calls it before i start losing my mind.

in & out

today was my first day at class after a 2 -week hiatus. and i dunno but the work pile is making me nervous. i just sent in the email regarding the job offer so i'm waiting for that and i'm considering starting on my Fashion Communication project right now so i can not worry about it later but i feel like crap because i just woke up from the type of sleep which gets me feeling anxious and crap when i wake up. taking lungful of air is not helping either. its like the lack of oxygen is making me even more nervous. i'm so scared to take this whole "taking over a new leaf" to the extreme. i hope i can do it. and do it well and be awesome. haha (that was a nervous attempt on being funny)