zomg like totally

plotting a plan for another world domination.

so Chibs left on Monday & we've been seeing each other everyday since. how incestuously gay. no wonder both of our dads are worried & all they can do is roll their eyes and layan only...

outside the lines

what i've been keeping busy with at restaurants since this week started.
if you happen to see a group of grown-up-20-something girls sitting quietly at a nice restaurant with color pencils & oil pastels strewn all over the table, please don't hesitate to join in the fun.

my lack of read-worthy entries seem to be put to a screeching halt ever since Chibs came home a week ago & kidnapped me upon arrival. i haven't really been properly at home since then. so many happened in a week. most of it actually involves movie-watching time on my bed/her couch, fatty foods around & of course long-winded conversations which leads to wide-eyed, high octaves, tired arm gestures & hysterical giggles.
i am too overwhelmed to write any more.

weirded out in the morn

i had a dream that i entered this old looking mall slash hotel. inside it was all dimly lit and probably has a wet smell. i remembered going through the place looking for an exit. but then i went up and down flights of stairs. one had those cockroaches on it. not the cockroaches you'll normally see but the ones with the hard exterior from the dinosaur ages. so it was there on the step and i went around it. but when i went across the stairs again, i didn't see it but i felt something HUGE crawling up my leg and it was under my jeans. so i had to try yanking it out and threw it down the stairs. and then i found Julia's room. she was on her doubledecker bed reading a book. she told me to go through the kitchen door to exit but while almost heading out, i saw my dad & he was asking me all sorts of questions and kept showing me his phone cause it has a picture of me. then Aunty Suzy calls me out asking me to go to lunch but it was a fancy lunch and i was suddenly wearing shorts so i didn't wanna go but my dad kept insisting for me to go. somehow then i ended up in the mall with Harith. and then suddenly he said he had to go hide somewhere so he runs off. i wanted to go look for him but then suddenly i saw Steffi and Nicola walking upstairs. i called them out and was a bit upset cause Steffi said she was only coming back in a few days but she lied. and lagi upset was when she was just like "Hi! okay take care of yourself..." and left. oh and then just as i was about to continue looking for Harith, Miriam called me out to help me look for presents for Ammar. she could not decide which teddy bear to get posing with which heart it's carrying. and in the midst of helping her, i was worried that Harith is missing, Steffi had forgotten about me and that i had a cockroach crawl up my leg earlier.

the reason while i'm wrote this down because my dreams never looked and felt so vivid in my life. excuse the sentence construction. had to write it in a hurry before all memories of it are lost in my head.

I love my Chibs

the girl who owns knives as she's watching zits popping.

goat's cheese

Steffi's face when she saw this video

dorks

we look alike because he copied part of my genetic make up. stupid smelly budak sekolah. pfft.

for steffi zayn

... who understands my weird humor and thinks that i need to join a book club. desperately.

your room

when you were gone, you had no idea how alone i felt in the big house.

and today i'm having major flashbacks of how things used to be. the things we used to do together. i will forever remember you be because you were a pivotal idol in my life up to the day you died. you taught me about living even after you were long gone. you made me wake up and move on despite having a bad day. sometimes when i feel like i feel the need to talk to someone when i feel completely alone, i just think of you and remember the things you would say to make me stop crying and to make me laugh again. lately i've been thinking about you a lot, especially during my difficult times and wonder maybe its you who makes things better eventually. i wish you could see me now and see to what i've become and hope its what you always wanted because i always do things for you. i love you Tok Mummy, and i miss you <3