fiery pants

this fit has to come out sooner or later. maybe not so much of a bitch fit but more towards a disappointed fit which exceeds the feeling of confusion and possible sadness. it came to my knowledge that you out of all people i kinda respected, including people who looks up upon you almost god-like; has this other alternate life created for your own sick and twisted purposes. why you had to do it nobody knows but probably yourself. does it have to do with insecurities or this is just a facade you want people to know you for? when i look at you now, i no longer know if that trust i carefully build can exist anymore. the million conversations are diminishing their truth and beliefs that i'm now denying that any of those things ever happened. maybe we do have our moments when we feel like we need to belong some place or more specifically to some one rather than our parents and friends, but subjecting to creating an illusion of sex, popularity and possibility jealousy is almost sick and twisted. this world you created not-to-perfectly; and i say this because yes, i am admitting i may get a bit too nosy & i have an eye for coincidences and detail; is a bit unbelievable don't you think? it is not as though you live alone in a house like Lars and playing pretend with a blow-up mannequin. you have a life and the way i see it, it is better than most of us will ever have in a lifetime, and yet the act you're pulling seems to crash everything into debris. how will i ever act normally in front of you without rolling my eyes and doubting everything you say? sometimes i manage to piece little slips you've made that annoys the hell out of me. i don't confront you with this because i figured you have your own battles to fight; whatever it may be.
so the point of this is basically in letting you know that i am disappointed. especially after making a whole lot of fun knowing that not too long ago a common enemy made the same sad excuse to gain attention. and i'm sorry for being able to notice these things because no offense, your mistakes can be pointed out quite clearly once you start piecing the coincidences together.

rule of thumb: attention to detail, buddy. you got caught because you were sloppy ;)

to wither

i wish everyone was lucky enough to be brought up the way i did by learning to respect other people.

hey, are you Malay?
er nope.
then what are you?
i'm locally mixed.
mixed with what?
lots of things.

if everyone were lucky, i would have proudly said i was Malay.

young things, go out and play!

Burberry Spring 2010 Campaign

are designers creating somewhat of an irony to put the faces of young children on their ad campaigns? Burberry is known to have past advertorial campaigns featuring young faces wearing their signature trenches and checks. girls with braces and freckles. and young boys who barely reached puberty trying to sell the sex appeal in designer wear. maybe the designer brand is going for a different perspective by targeting the younger and fresher society by dragging them into the world of high-end designer wear and into the illusion of a typical Gossip-Girl lifestyle. sure, fashion is blooming but with our morality at stake? kids are growing up faster at the rate globalization is heading. kids are vying for a piece of the sex appeal the pop culture is force-feeding. young kids worrying about their weight and what brand they wear are starting to get worrying. worst still, parents are encouraging this. the Hannah Montana era kickstarted the trend of young girls aspiring to become an illusion of Hollywood.

it is no wonder children trafficking is on a rise in many parts of the world. including our own homeland. why is it on a rise? supply and demand. the showcasing of young children strutting their non-existent booty on television had created an impact in not only young kids but also pedophiles. why do you think there's such thing as child pornography? people who are aroused by the constant portrayal of kids as adults obviously wants to see more than what is allowed on national television.

manufacturers and designers are now creating products designed specifically for kids who are aspiring to grow up fast. walk into a toy store, you'll come to the sad reality that they don't make fun toys like how they did back then. Barbie dolls are getting skankier and skankier with nonsensical themes and clothing options. toys are looking more like they are collectible items instead of toys to play with. what happened to those Polly Pocket and Mighty Max portable play-things? or those nuts and bolts thingies which enables you to built functional cranes? flick through the cartoon channels and you'll wonder what happened to actual fun cartoons.

maybe growing up faster in a faster paced world could have a few perks. but does that mean sacrificing the younger generation out of their morals? growing up faster means higher responsibility and the possibility of them growing up with the illusion that the pop-culture is God.

neapolitan

solve sundsbo

if you were paying close attention, i enjoy indulging myself with the beauty of sexual complexities captured on film. boys kissing boys, girls kissing girls; the elegance of making orgies into fashion work of art dazzles me. the idea that sex sells should be used to its highest potential as maybe not many are willing to go as far. if 3 steamy chiseled-bodied men slammed you against the wall, wouldn't you wanna know how far you'll go?

solve sundsbo


miss deyn is a little too overrated this day and age. the peroxide-do got girls into a bleaching frenzy causing many to bleed on their scalps & surviving with coarser-than-pubes hair. picture is cool nonetheless. the question is, it's cool to flash a Union Jack on fashion but would you do the same with a Malaysian flag? would the effect and "fashion credentials" cut it for you?

yeah i thought so.

solve sundsbo


i don't believe in heaven or hell. purgatory maybe. the idea that the rules we were told from young is not as black and white as one would like to think. as i grew and started exploring the depths of life, i've come to realize how gray the lines are. thus the ideology that people should really mind their own business. who are people to question my beliefs and lifestyle in comparison to a civilization thousands of years ago. i may have done a few things i may not be proud of but who are these people to justify what i've done wrong when i've never hurt anyone. forcing an idea into one's mind does not necessarily mean they are gonna believe it. so please don't worry about my soul.

what to (hopefully) expect in 2010

with the new year creeping in less than 10 hours, i've compiled a list of things i want to expect in the coming year. some may make no sense what-so-ever but you'll never know when they might actually happen. this year for example, we didn't think Michael Jackson will die nor will America elect a black president. so here's a list for i-told-you-so purposes in case it really happens and you know i was the first to come up with them.

1. Megan Fox sex tape: this shameless vixen is not shy that she's into sex. A LOT. as she has openly admitted to magazine interviews since she appeared in Transformers. so yes, a Megan Fox sex tape with preferably someone hotter than Brian Austin would be better. or some girl-on-girl action (read: lesbian tendencies surfacing)

2. Daniel Radcliffe coming out of the closet: not that i was ever a HUGE fan of this actor nor do i despite him to the highest degree, but he somewhat gives me a gay vibe since he first appeared. maybe its a British thing, but still... Harry Potter gay? now that would be cool. plus the parents' of HP fans' reaction would be almost priceless.

3. Religious themed movies: in 2008 up until 2009, most of the blockbuster movies revolved around the ideology of the ending and dying world with hidden environmental messages for us mankind to start saving the planet before we are all doomed to die tragically (The Day the Earth Stood Still, 20120, Avatar...). so i'm predicting there would be more religious themed movies to scare us with the impending doom. probably movies revolving more on the 7 deadly sins would be awesome or something more DaVinci-esque.

4. Dungarees would be in again: okay maybe it will look much more fashionable with better fits and colors. people are starting to wear those suspenders again with jeans, shorts and even skirts. so i don't see why dungarees isn't happening.

5. The Wham hair-do will be cool: okay so maybe i'm being a bit bias because i'm currently digging the hair. with my hair growing almost 10% there, i am lacking options to style it. thus the Wham-do. but you'll see, all the cool people will have it...

6. The big bang in the Indie & Electro scene: listening to MTV & Radio fed music will no longer be cool which would lead to many turning to podcasts and going for more gigs. which in time will bring radio and tv to start playing Noah & The Whale. then what? we will start dusting off our cassette players and start listening to A1, Spice Girls & Five again, thats what!

7. Nokia what? Samsung what?: everyone will either own Iphones or blackberries. the pandemic is starting now.

8. Alcohol pills: shots? yeah sure... lemme grab some water first. why bother with the messy liquid in crowded clubs where you can't hold a table long enough before people start bumping into you. and pity that guy who has to stay by the table keeping tabs on ALL the women handbags and to guard the drinks from desperate and snicky patrons. let everyone have fun; pop a few alcohol pills and you're good to go!

9. i'm not cheating, i'm just casually dating: with the abundance of males and females to choose from to have a good time, people are less willing to be tied down thus everyone will be casually dating everyone else with not much of an exclusivity.

10. nothing will surprise you anymore: the rise of violent crimes, drastic fashion trends, errectic weather forecasts, boys kissing boys, girls kissing girls, boys in high heels, bald girls, models coming up with albums, suicidal celebrities... its old news. what more can we ask for? i'm already expecting snow in my back yard in the middle of the hottest season of the year in KL. and i'm already expecting Miley Cyrus with a DUI & exiting her car without any panties on. so i think in 2010 we will be calmer people as we can easily shrug things off. or in all extreme-ends there would be those close-minded freaks who are ALWAYS there to spoil the fun. again, what IS new?

pre-2009 end

i got so turned on by these pictures. sexy much? there's one body i could never see myself achieving despite wanting it since Lindsay Lohan's Over video came out. with the dieting and 2-year period at the gym unable to get as far, i quit half way knowing i was happier choking down super sandwiches, chocolicious sundaes & chicken wings. this year led to an all-time high on food binging with the company of fat-friends; thus the failure of looking as smashing as i could be. sigh. let bygones be bygones.
with the end almost only a few boxes away on the calendar, i am scrambling to compare this year and the last. and it's true, this year is definitely better than the last (so far, at least).

negative response

all of you can just go to hell because i'm out and done with this bullshit and pack of hypocritical lies that i had to endure just because i thought i had reason. but now that i know better, i believe i am destined to better things than being treated like shit. i don't need another man who degrades me in front of others just to look cool and powerful. and i don't know what your deal is when you make me feel invisible up to the point i feel like evaporating forever from your existence. it hurts to know that some people have that tendency to not think before speaking and going off just cause i am a convenience to them; knowing i will always come back. i wish that i can say that i am strong enough to just literally fuck off for good but that fact is maybe i do care a little too much. so far i have cried over 7 people in my life and you're one of them. because it is true, words really hurt.

rule of thumb #413

do not. i repeat do not think that making assumptions about someone makes you psychic. and it does not give you right of way to tell your psychic abilities to people who are bigger bitches than you are. get off you high horse & grow the fuck up.

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do not take advantage of people who happens to not mind doing shits for you. at the end of the day, they will come to realize that you have no purpose to them & start doing shits for other people but you.

plastic girls

girls turning heads. girls giving heads. these are the new breed of girls born out of the pop culture of "reality" television and Mean Girls. the portrayal of lifestyle and attitude relates closely to the educational value of something The Hills might offer. sadly these includes the upper class of people who have so much going for them and yet the brain content they choose is saddening.

throwing at boys who will catch them with open arms especially with their tops unbuttoned and o-lips. don't blame the boys because why waste such a pretty prey?

why plastic girls attract males:
1. easy to mold thus able to take on any shape. they'll be whatever you want.
2. perfect physique. to be attracted to.
3. flexible. for post-party purposes.
4. hollow inside. easy conversations about the weather.
5. constantly smiling. will not say no.

let me at 'em!

oooh i wanna fight but hold me bitch!